when your mind lies to you (5)
when your mind lies to you (5)
And 3 years it was, wasn’t it?
And all those times I believed in us — I believed in you. But in that last few months we had, a part of me always knew.
The nighttime scared me the most; The nighttime is when you reflect on your day. It is when you decide if your day is fulfilling or rather, tiring. And in that last few nights we had, a part of me always knew: “You’re only one bad night away from leaving me.”
And here we are, aren’t we?
Here we are, in my mind, back to those nights — the good nights.
The night when I got your first text; the night when we told each other’s secrets; the night when you found out you “love” me too — that same night, after a year, when you finally wanted to be with me.
But these nights I had, after a year, when you finally found out that it’s not me who you wanted to be with, are the nights I am stuck with.
The nighttime scares me the most, still.
I just wish…
I wish you had let me go the soonest you found out you never loved me,
all those times.
fuji dl-300 | fuji superia400
(arts ; 2022)
